dads_lil_dreamr

well on the 29th of this month im going to be moving back to Stockton,CA without the love of my life! she said she will be coming out about 2 weeks after i leave i am going to miss her soooooo sooooo much. i have been disancing myself from her because im hurting inside. i love her so much and i cant even explain how i feel doin this. im so sad imma cry my whole way to california. im going to miss waking up and going to sleep next to her but ill see her soon. i love you baby!!!!! i hope you miss me as much as i miss you...TISSES

, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons:

I do physical labor.
I work in great depths.
I plunge head first into everything I do.
I do not get weekends or holidays off.
I work in a damp environment.
I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation.
I work in high temperatures.
My work exposes me to contagious diseases.

Sincerely,
The Penis
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Dear Penis,

After assessing your request and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons:

You do not work eight hours straight.
You fall asleep after brief work periods.
You do not always follow the orders of the management team.
You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations.
You do not take initiative.
You need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift.
You don't always observe necessary safety regulations, such as wearing the correct protective clothing.
You will retire well before you are 65.
You are unable to work double shifts.
You sometimes leave your designated work area before you have completed your assigned task.
You spit at your customers.
And if that were not enough, you are constantly seen entering and exiting the workplace carrying two suspicious looking bags.

Sincerely,
Management Team

im so angry and i dont know why. i have lost my place, my place where i go to get away from everything and everyone. i need to find it again before i lose it and mess up everything i have worked for! i dont understand it. i just wanna cry and i feel like i shouldnt so i hide and cry then wipe them away when someone comes around i try so hard but i feel like i am running on a treadmill. you run and run but dont go no where. i am mean to everyone that i love when all they do is try to help. im sorry my doctors give me pills to control it and my dad gave be a pill tht is all natural but i dont wanna take any of them i feel like when i take them i am still like this inside i just dont wear a a sweater to cover my shirt. but i probably should take them so i dont hurt anyone else. i hate to cause pain to them because they are all i have. i love you guys!!!!

well i miss you all ad i cant wait to come home and see you guys. well since i have been back in stockton [Unknown LJ tag] took me to get my nails done so i would stop chewing them to nothing, and i have managed to fall down some stairs and sprang my ankle and possibly torn a ligament my doctor is sending me to and orthopedic doctor i hope it not that bad. so i have to put off my date to leave from the 2nd to maybe the 4th. well ill see you all later!!!

uturn85 and i are leaving tomorrow to Stockton,Ca back to our parents. but only for a couple of weeks, to take care of some business and say out good-byes. i am going to miss everyone here, and the beautiful scenes. i cant wait to come back i already miss this place! well love you all see you later

well last night or should i say this morning too was great! i had the best new years ever. wow, it is 2006 can you believe it. well i spent my new years with my dad, my step dad, red granny, larry, and my wonderful girlfriend. well we have been together for almost 3 years but it was our first new years spent together and it was the greatest feeling to have the one you love right next to you at that very moment saying i love you. they say who ever you bring in the new year with you spend that year with them. she is the best person in my life.

well today was one of my favorite days in atlanta. my family and i went on a family outing and it was awsome this town is GREAT and i love it so much. it is so beautiful. but anyway there is a mall underground and there were many neat stores. there was even this area in there called the underground rail road and they had lots of quilts from the slaves and it was neat to find out that they quilts were really maps for the slaves to know where they need to go to get away, that was the high light of my day and then i saw the capital.

hey dads, just less then 24 hours now i cant wait and i cant wait to show you how much bigger my boobs got dad!!! hahaha well i will see you guys when im there i love you guys and just in case anything happens like some freak accident i just tell them look for not the black box but the black bubble and they will find me!!! lol

well just 4 days left until my girlfriend and i fly out to see 3 of the greatest people in my life. and we are going to have a great christmas. my little sister flys out tomorrow to her mom for christmas she will be back here in stockton on the 30th but i will get to see her on her way back because she is stoping in ATL. i am going to go meet her at the airport. so i leave to my dads in 4 days and when i come back i have no idea where im going to be but i really am not thinking about that now because i am happy im out of my girlfriends parents house and we are together without anyone telling us what to do. i just wanna get out of here with her and have our life together. im ready to grow up and get things on the right track now. i just hope everything is going to go good for us. i am begining to think i am living like my dad (no offense dad) i have always admired that he could just pick up and move and just live on his hopes and dreams. well i love you guys!

7 MORE DAYS!!!! ONE FREAKIN WEEK LEFT YEAH HOO!!!!

11 MORE DAYS LEFT!!!!!! i cant wait until i go to my daddys house i am so happy im like screaming so loud and my panties are getting all bunched up...lol...hahahaha that is so funny i am so happp well on the 6th my older sister turned 21 and she went out to dinner and got wasted which is funny. well we are having a party for her on the 11th so this weekend and our nana and papa's place and im going to party!!! yeah yeah!!!!! but that doesnt make me as happy as seeing my dads and red headed granny again!!!! well i love you guys!!!

well to the world i guess i must tell you all why my name is (dads_lil_dreamr)i is because of course im daddys little girl but im also his little dreamer i have lots of dreams and he supports every single one of them even if he does not really approve of them. i love him very much for that but i must add that my other dad supports me too but in his own way i love him for that too... what can i say i love both my dads! anyway back what i was saying like here is an example like my dad keeps talking about my girlfriend and i are going to be moving out to ATL. soon with them and my gf and i have decided when we do that we want to start going to church and get baptized (to wash us clean of our past) to start all new out there! i thank him for supporting us in every decision we make. i love you dad!

well i think it went really well but i was a little annyoied that liz's family was there like they knew my grandfather. they hide the car from me like i really want that junker anyway.lol.. since then my girlfriend has lost her job and went to jail for something they could not prove she did grant it that maybe she did have someone clock her out sometimes but that doesnt make it ok for them to do all of what they did. well that is that let me get to the exciting news IM GOING TO ATLANTA,GA in 23 days i a little nervious of going on the airplane but ill be ok ill be with my honey bunches of oats...lol.. it is going to be a very long day on December 20th we are getting up at 3:15 in the damn morning and then we have to get onto bart at 5:00 and get to the airport at like 6 something then we wont leave until 9:20... well it will be fun oh well i get to see my dads and red granny and of course my laura angle cheesecake and sassy frass!!!!!

well it is about 3 days until my grandfathers funeral in cottonwood. i am getting kind of nervious to go but i think i will be ok because my mom and kristina are going with me. i feel bad because his death should be a good thing cuz he is with my grandma now and he is happier. but it is going to be a disaster really. his kids are going to be fighting over his property. well i think it should be sold! thats just my opinion though. well that stuff does not bother me becasue i dont have to deal with it. so i am sad because i was expecting him to pass away but not so soon. he was an asshold sometimes because he thought he knew everything but hey who doesnt! it kind of hurts more because i havnt talked tohim in a very long time, well since his last birthday on July 4, 2005. i am going to miss him. when i found out that he passed away i cried so hard i went into about 3 seizures. but my dad told me i should be happy for him i guess i can try to it is selfish of me to think he should of stayed. well i love him very much and i will miss him a lot.

Today is a great day for me. it is mine and my girlfriends sixth month anniversary of being back together.
well we have been through a lot together. yeah some say we are not right for each other because of things we did before. but that has all changed we have grown up a lot and now we understand more. like people say, "behind a great man stands a good woman, but next to every great woman stands a good woman." i am one who not stands behind but side by side. i am proud of that!

On another hand i am going to talk about 2 of the greatest men in my life. i call them bother my dads. yes indeed my father is gay and i am talking about him and his husband. i am so proud of them because of many different things. they have been there for me through so much and gave me lots of good advise, although i did not take most of it into consideration i still turned out to be a great independant woman. i lived with them for one a short time but it was the best time in my life i learned more than ever! i know that it was hard for you two when i wouldnt listen or was just a pain in the ass but i thank you for dealing with it. i love those 2 great men so much.

well i live in stockton, California and i am 18 going to be 19 on the 28th of october. YES!(your gettin old dads!) i have lived here for most of my life i have not yet told anyone here (like my mom) but i am out for another adventure in my life. sometime within the next year i am going to be moving out to ATL with my dads and grandmother. my grandmother is simply the greatest woman. we may have our disagreements but we still love each other.

WELL YOU GUYS I HOPE YOUR READY TO DEAL WITH ME AGAIN! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!

well today is one of the biggest days of my life. GRADUATION!!!! yeah im free! i am so happy my dads are coming all the way from ATL to come see me and my grandmother (red headed granny) only the greatest grandma! then my mom and her husband, my little sister, and nana. my big sister isnt coming she said she had finals to so that suck i wish she could see me get my diploma and walk across stage. i am so so happy i did this i didnt think i would make it but with the help of my family i did it! thank you dads and red granny you guys were the biggest support in that. i am going to miss high school though all my friends and teachers. but i have to move on i have learned so much but there is so much more to learn and experience out in that big world. im not quiet sure if im ready but im going to try! that is what my dad tought me, always to try. i hope he is proud of me!